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What About Now Chapter 3

Kendall just sat in silence after Katie had left the room. Logan and his friends were talking around him, not really paying any attention to the blond. Kendall got the impression that Logan didn’t really want him there while his friends were over.

Not that Kendall could really blame him. He was just a worthless nobody and people didn’t really want to hang out with a nobody. His school life up until he had been adopted had been proof of that.

After people had found that Mr and Mrs Knight had been murdered and Katie had told them that it was all Kendall’s fault, people had just stopped talking to him. The few friends that he did have had left him, believing what Katie was saying about the murder.

Kendall sighed. He life had gone from good to bad in about three months. And he really wasn’t sure how much more of this he could take. If what Kendall thought about Logan was really true (not that he would blame him) then he wasn’t sure that he would be around much longer.

He just… he really didn’t know what to think anymore.

He hadn’t told Kelly this because he didn’t want her to think that he was crazy and give her a reason to hate him to but ever since the first time that Katie had accused him of their parents’ death, Kendall had been hearing voices in his head telling him to go and kill himself. He never listened to the voices but now they were getting harder and harder to ignore.

With one last look at Logan and his friends, Kendall left the room. He didn’t really know his way around the Mitchell house, so Kendall just wandered around until he accidentally collided with someone.

“Ow!” The person screamed. Kendall looked up to see that he had bumped into Katie.

Oh no. He was so dead.

Katie looked down to see who had bumped into her and when she saw that it was her brother, she glared at him.

“Watch where you’re going, you little brat!” She screamed at Kendall. Kendall trembled from where he sat on the floor. “You could have seriously hurt me! Why do you have to be so clumsy and stupid all of the time!”

Tears filled Kendall’s light green eyes. Katie had never yelled at him like that before. Ever since this whole thing began she had just simply ignored him, she had never yelled at him before.

“That’s right, cry, you stupid little bitch,” Katie said glaring at Kendall. “No one even wants you here. Not Mr and Mrs Mitchell. Not Logan or his friends. And certainly not me,”

Katie walked away, leaving a sobbing Kendall in the hallway. He had no idea that she actually felt like that.

Kendall buried his head in his knees, sobbing quite loudly. She was right. He was just a clumsy, stupid, little brat. He couldn’t do anything right. Because of him, his parents were dead (or so he thought) and Katie now hated him and wanted nothing to do with him.

But what if she was also right about Logan and the Mitchells? What if they didn’t want him either? What if they were only letting him stay because they felt sorry for him that his parents were now dead? And surely if Logan didn’t want him then Logan’s friends wouldn’t want him around either.

Kendall sat there on the floor against the wall, sobbing, until he felt strong arms wrap around him and bring him against someone’s chest. He buried his tear stained face in that person’s shirt as he felt a hand rubbing soothing circles on his shaking back.

Five minutes later, Kendall looked up to see that he was in Logan’s arms with James and Carlos sitting around them. Kendall tried to get away from them but they were to strong and held him in place.

“What’s wrong, Kendall?” Logan asked in a worried voice. He, James and Carlos had wondered where Kendall had gone to and went to look for him when they noticed that the younger boy wasn’t in his and Logan’s bedroom anymore. They had found him sitting here by himself, crying into his knees, wondering what had gotten the boy so upset.

“K-Katie…” Was all that Kendall managed to get out before the tears started running down his face again.

“What happened, little buddy?” Carlos asked. When Logan had told them Kendall and Katie’s story, he had felt a need to protect the younger boy and not just because he was now his best friend’s little brother.

“S-She-” Kendall couldn’t finish what he was saying. He buried he face in Logan’s shirt again. Right now, it was just too painful to talk about. He felt so betrayed by Katie.

“Ssh, Kendall. It’s okay,” Logan said in soothing voice, shifting Kendall so that he was now cradling the blond in his lap and rocking him back and forth. “Tell us what happened. What did Katie do to make you so upset, buddy?”

“S-She said t-that I-I was a c-clumsy l-little b-brat and that n-nobody wanted m-me here,” Kendall sobbed.

How could Katie say something like that about a boy like that? And more importantly how could she say something like that about her own brother?

Logan, James and Carlos were all out raged when the words had left Kendall’s mouth. The three boys had never been so angry in their lives’.

“Kendall, you’re not a brat and you’re wrong, we do want you here. Every single once of us,” Logan said and James and Carlos nodded in agreement.

“Logan’s right, Kendall,” James said giving the little blond a reassuring smile. Kendall didn’t return the smile and didn’t say anything more. He just laid there in Logan’s arms until he had cried himself to sleep.

Logan shared a look with James and Carlos. Katie was going to get it later. But this was also a look that said that they needed to watch out for Kendall, protect him and make him feel loved.

They needed to convince him that this was he was his fault, they didn’t know how to do that though.

But they knew that they had to or risk losing Kendall to himself. Because when you wallow in your own hatred, you become your own worst enemy.


What About Now Chapter 2

Kendall slowly walked into the house as he held on tight to Logan’s arm, not that the older boy minded much. Ever since they had left the orphanage, Kendall hadn’t left Logan’s side. He was too scared.

Things were going to be so different now. And he didn’t know what was going to happen next and he really didn’t want to think about it. What if it was something bad? After all, bad things had only seemed to happen to him lately ever since he had found his parents dead in their room. Katie turning her back on him was basically proof of that.

He really didn’t know why, but he was afraid that Logan would turn his back on him as well once he found out how his parents died. He was so afraid that Logan would think that it Kendall’s fault as well that his parents were dead. He knew it was silly to think that but he just couldn’t help it.

“Well, Katie, Kendall, here we are,” Mr. Mitchell said they entered the front foyer. Kendall looked around a little. The front foyer was large with high ceilings and it had little beige colour on the walls that made it seem welcome. He could also see a large staircase off to the side that most likely lead to the bedrooms.

“Katie, your room is the last room on the left and, Kendall, you’ll be sharing a room with Logan, the room right next door to ours,” Mrs. Mitchell explained. Katie nodded her head as she followed Mr and Mrs Mitchell upstairs, carrying her bags and also leaving Kendall and Logan alone.

“Are you ready to go upstairs, Kendall?” Logan asked softly. Kendall nodded shyly as Logan took his hand and gently led him up the stairs to their shared room.

Logan slowly opened up the door once he and Kendall reached the top of the stairs and led the now shaking blond inside the room and closed the door behind him.

“That’s your bed,” Logan said smiling as he pointed to the bed that was closest to the window. Kendall nodded and moved to sit on the bed that Logan was pointing at. “Mom will probably take you and Katie to go shopping for clothes and things like that either tomorrow or the next day,”

“S-She doesn’t have to do that,” Kendall said in a small voice looking at his hands. He really didn’t want Mrs. Mitchell wasting her money on him; he just wasn’t worth it.

“Well, she wants to. She just wants you and Katie to be really happy here,” Logan said moving to sit down beside the blond. When Kendall didn’t respond Logan just sighed. His parents had warned him about this.

They had explained to him that Kendall (at the time he thought he was just going to have Kendall as a sibling) would most likely have problems excepting things from them because of his parents’ death. At first, Logan didn’t understand why that would be such problem for him but then his mom also explained the Knights hadn’t had a lot of money for toys and things like that so Kendall probably wouldn’t be used to receiving things from other people.

Logan reached over and gave Kendall a gentle squeeze. Kendall leaned into his touch, having been touch deprived for a while now. Katie had stop hugging him or touching him in any sort of way when she had started believing that Kendall was somehow to blame for their parents’ death. Sure, Kelly had hugged and comforted him whenever he had had his nightmares in the orphanage but it was nothing like the sibling love that he had desperately needed and wanted for the past little while.

The boys sat in silence for a while just enjoying each other’s company. They knew that they should probably be getting to know each other but right now they were just enjoying the company to much to really talk to one and other.

The boys heard a knock on the door; Logan got up to answer it, only to come face to face with his two best friends, James Diamond and Carlos Garcia.

“Hey, guys,” Logan greeted letting the two boys into his bedroom.

“Hey, Loges,” James and Carlos said together. When they entered the room they were shocked to see a little blond boy, who looked to be about fourteen-years-old, sitting on the bed across from Logan’s.

“Uhh, Logan?” Carlos asked looking at the boy. “Who’s that?”

“Oh!” Logan said before his face broke into a smile. “This is Kendall, one of the kids that my parents adopted. I told you guys about that remember?”

James and Carlos both nodded before they stopped.

“Hold on,” James said looking at Kendall before turning to look at Logan. “What do you mean by “one of the kids”? Do you mean there’s more then one?”

Logan nodded at his two best friends. “Yep. My parents adopted two kids, Kendall and his sister Katie Knight,”

“Oh,” James and Carlos said.

All three boys turned to the shaking blond who was still siting on the bed. Logan slowly walked over to Kendall, bringing the younger boy to his feet before him bringing over to where Carlos and James were standing.

“Kendall, these are my best friends, James Diamond and Carlos Garcia,” Logan introduced, pointing to each of the boys in turn.

“Hi, Kendall,” They said as the door opened again.

“Logan, have you seen- Oh. Never mind,” Katie said as she saw her brother standing right front of her with Logan by his side.

“Katie,” Logan said looking at the brunet girl. “These are my friends James and Carlos. James, Carlos, this is Kendall’s older sister Katie,”

Katie smiled at the two and gave them a wave before leaving the room but not before shooting her brother a disgusted look. Kendall almost backed away from Logan and his friends when she did that. That was the look that Katie now gave him whenever there were new people around. That was the look that said “You better not mess this up or there will be hell to pay”. He really hated that look. He really did.

Fortunately, for him, Logan and the others didn’t seem to notice. Maybe one day they would figure it out or maybe he would just tell them.

But, for right now, he was just enjoying his new life. And he wanted to keep it that way for as long as possible.

Chapter 3

What About Now

Summary: After finding his parents dead in their bedroom, Kendall and his sister Katie are adopted by The Mitchells. But, Katie, convinced that Kendall had something to do it, has turned her back on her brother. Kendall feeling alone and depressed turns to cutting and other things to relieve his pain. When Logan finds out about this can convince Kendall that it wasn’t his fault? AU. Genre: Angst/Hurt/Comfort Characters: Logan and Kendall

What About Now?

Chapter 1

He slowly walked up the to his parents in the attic. He wasn’t sure why he was up there, he just felt that he had to. He wasn’t going up there because he had a nightmare like he normally did when he went to his parents’ room.</p>

No. He like had to check on them. Even though he had just seen them merely hours ago when had come to his room to say goodnight to him before living for their own room. To him something didn’t feel right. No; not at all.

Something wasn’t right. He just knew it.

As he approached his parents’ he felt his palms starting to and his heart starting to race. He was getting really scared now. He didn’t know what he would find once opened that door. Hopefully his parents, asleep and in bed. But right now he wasn’t so sure.

He hoped that his minded was just playing tricks. That this was just a side effect from all the junk food that he had eaten before bedtime. He was seriously considering abandoning doing and going and climbing in bed with his older sister because right now he was seriously freaked out.

He took a deep breath as he put his on the door the knob and turned ever so slowly. He pushed the door ever slowly.

He froze.

And then he screamed.

Kendall woke up with a start, tears running down his as lay in his bed at the Palm Woods Orphanage. Sobs start to escape his throat. He had the seen it again.

His parents. Lying dead in their bedroom, a man hanging with a gun hanging them. It had been one of the horrifying things the merely fourteen year old boy had seen in his entire life.

After he had screamed, his older sister, Katie Knight, had come to see what he was screaming. Then to had screamed at the seeing the sight of her parents dead on their bedroom floor.

The rest of it was a blur to Kendall; the last thing he remembered was entering the orphanage clinging for dear life to his sister. The siblings had stayed together that night.

Not daring to leave each other’s sides for anything.

In the coming days since the murder the siblings had attended their parents’ funeral and learned even more terrible news.

They had to be put up for adoption.

They had no other family in which they could live with. Sure they had their grandparents but they were for old and frail to look after Kendall and Katie.

That was three months ago now and they still haven’t adopted. Katie, for reasons unknown to Kendall, had stopped talking to him. He felt so scared and alone now.

He didn’t dare try to make friends with any of the other kids at the orphanage. He that they would just turn their backs on him to like his sister seemed to have done. He was so alone and he hated that.

He wanted his parents back, but he knew that he wasn’t going to get them back. No matter how much he wanted it. And Katie; he wanted her back too. He wanted her to be that caring, loving sister that he had always known her to be. But it seemed like he wasn’t going to get that either.

He hated this. He all of this.

He heard his bedroom door opened as Ms. Kelly Wainwright, the lady who ran the orphanage, came to see why Kendall was screaming.

“Kendall? Are you okay, sweetheart?” She asked him as she sat down on the edge of his bed. He shook his head as he attached himself to her. She was the only one that he trusted now and it wasn’t uncommon for her to be his room in the middle of the night. “What’s wrong, sweetie?”

“I-I s-saw it a-again,” He sobbed, burying his face in the crook of her neck.

“Oh Kendall,” She sighed sadly. She hugged him closer to her and rubbed his back. She felt so bad for him, she did, of course she felt bad for anyone loses their parents but Kendall has not only lost his parents but it seems he’s lost his sister as well.

She just held like she did most and just let him cry out all his pain. After minutes, seeing that he had cried himself to sleep again, she laid him down under his covers and tucked him in.

Logan Mitchell followed slowly behind his parents as the entered the Palm Woods Orphanage. Today was and exciting day for them as they were looking to hopefully some new members into their little family.

Logan had been asking his parents for a new sibling for a while now and they had finally caved but with Logan being 16 clearly having a child the natural way would prove impossible so they had decided to try adoption.

Logan looked slowly around as woman approached him and his parents. He was so excited about he could barely control himself; he was just so excited about this. Ever since he was he had always wanted a sibling and now he was finally gonna the chance to have one.

Logan was brought out of his thoughts when he felt his mother’s hand on his shoulder telling him it was time to go inside and meet the kids. Logan’s parents had picked the child already, Logan was just meeting them for the first time and they would get to take the child home with them today.

They entered what looked like a small bedroom where a boy with blond hair and a girl with brown hair were waiting for them.

“Logan, would like you to meet your new brother and sister, Kendall and Katie Knight,” His mom told him gesturing to the boy and then the girl in turn.

“Hi,” He said with a friendly smile.

Katie smiled back at him and returned the hello while Kendall just looked at his feet, not meeting Logan’s gaze.

“Well, we’ll let you kids get to know each other while go and finish up some paperwork and then we can leave,” Mrs. Mitchell said as she Mr. Mitchell and Kelly exited the room.

“So… How old are you guys?” Logan asked calmly, though he was far from. He was so freaking happy; he thought he was only getting one sibling but now he’s getting two!

“Well, I’m sixteen and Kendall’s fourteen she said smiling. “How about you? How old are you?”

“I’m sixteen as well,” He answered.

“Aww! That means is the little baby!” Katie cooed. Kendall blushed hated it whenever someone called him a baby.

“I think that’s cute,” Logan said smiling at the shy blond in front of him.

“Thank you,” Kendall mumbled shyly. He had always been a shy person and he hated that.

After a few more minutes of just talking the three adults came back told the kids it was time to leave. As they left the room, Kendall hesitated. He was scared. He never really had been anywhere since he came to the orphanage except school. Logan noticed that Kendall wasn’t following them to the main lobby.

“Are you okay, Kendall?” He asked him. Kendall just shook his head with tears in his eyes. “What’s wrong?”

“I’m scared,” He whispered in a small voice. Logan made his way over to the smaller boy wrapped an arm around his shoulders, giving him a gentle squeeze.

“It’ll be okay, you’ll see,” Logan reassured as they followed everyone else out of the orphanage. Ready to start a new, hopefully life.

Chapter 2